The busy past two weeks caught up to me today. While I felt good last week after my 50 miler and managed to get 41 miles in during the week including 18 miles of pacing for my friend Joey in his first marathon (well, 13 miles of pacing and 5 miles getting to the meet up spot), this week has put the toll on me and I am just plain tired.
After pacing on Sunday, I took Monday and Tuesday off (except wt training and yoga on Monday), had good runs Wed and Yesterday, but today just couldn't get it together. This week was moving week and I moved out of my apartment on Wednesday and put things into my two storage containers to be shipped off to Seattle. Early Thursday morning someone broke into my container and so I had to spend the majority of the morning sitting on the sidewalk watching the container until they came to repair and take the containers away. Luckily, only a suitcase filled with shoes and two brand new pairs of Adidas running shoes were stolen. The whole thing didn't trouble me too much, though I do find it ironic that the one thing in my containers that I would say I wouldn't want to be stolen would be my last two pairs of a now extinct style of shoe. Oh well... I have two other pairs, but that is just two more pairs of shoes my non-sponsored self will have to buy. I just look at it that whomever took them, needed them more than me.
But I am tired today. I kept trying to get motivated but had to run all over for errands for school, work, etc today. And then there is the fact that I am racing on Sunday. So I should be resting. However, since last week was a recovery week, this week being a taper week is just hard. It makes me feel restless and tired all at the same time! I do want to be as fresh as possible for my race, but at the same time have to do a bit of extra work today to banish the negative thoughts that creep in. This month will continue to be intensely busy and I can imagine with the three more races that I have, that I will have to be very militant about my rest so I don't burn out. I tend to forget that it takes alot out of you to run 50 miles at altitude.... This month/6 weeks of training/racing/life are very much an experiment to see where I push and where I pull back. I need to walk a very fine line to make sure that everything gets done, that my training is maintained, that my health is supported and that my mental space is a good one. I think I am doing ok, but it is a continual growing process.